![]() I had my first child when I was 27 and I suddenly started doing the dance of “mother” and I was impressed with myself for the duration of my son’s infancy because, to my surprise, I found I was really good at being his mother. I had no idea that I had PTSD or that my past was still effecting my present. ![]() Are there any untreated PTSD sufferers reading that can’t seem to keep a stable job or relationship? I know what you’re going through or went through. Until I had children, I knew that I was all messed up inside and my young adult life was a roller coaster. Treatment involves trying to train yourself out of survival mode. A person who has PTSD/Complex-PTSD essentially has a brain that is chronically wired for stress and operates in constant survival mode. Many times it’s because the person didn’t have the chance or the skills to healthfully process their experience. Even memories that had nothing to do with trauma can be irretrievable if they were around the time of the traumatic event(s).Īfter experiencing trauma, some people develop Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Evidently, it’s a common phenomenon to lose several years’ worth of memories as a result of trauma. I always knew that I’d endured sexual abuse at a very young age by family members and for that reason, I didn’t try to think back to childhood very often in life. I’d never given much thought to why I couldn’t recall childhood memories or feel connected to my childhood. This is my first-hand description of what it’s like to become a person you never wanted to be. ![]() Ensuring their well-being has given me the desire and motivation to undergo such painful change and finally deal with my past. Some changes we are ready for and others we would rather not face because it is scary and if weren’t for my boys, I would likely run away from the more difficult parts. Something about becoming a parent changes us, doesn’t it? Well, I suppose it would be more accurate to say everything about becoming a parent changes us! I love how becoming a mother to my two boys has forced me to grow in ways I never would have let myself grow.
0 Comments
Leave a Reply. |
AuthorWrite something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview. ArchivesCategories |